Saturday, August 7, 2010

After the initial three weeks of seeing, dining with and talking to all of the friends I hadn't seen in a year, my life is returning to normal, I am not planning as much with people, and I'm basically spending my time working, vegging out, or thinking about next year. When I think about it, I feel that I am leading a completely unproductive existence--on the other hand, work provides the illusion of actually having accomplished something, and I'm beginning to realize how great it feels just to be home. Every night that I don't go out and overexert myself trying to be social, I feel this amazing sense of satisfaction. I can sit at home. At home. Not in a foreign country.

And that is why I have decided that in two years, I will go back to Europe again. Because this slipping into the predictable and safe, it scares me. It is not how one grows. It is not how one makes a mark upon the world. I can at least attempt, however insignificant I may be in the grand scheme of things, to do something that can bring about change in my time. I can try. I can try to make things count. But I will not get anywhere by sitting at home, thinking about things I could cook and contemplating where to buy the best quality sheets at the cheapest prices. Why am I not filling my time with important, culturally enriching activities? I need to get going again. I need to stop gravitating toward comfort zones, because that's how I get lazy. Two years, that's my goal. To years to get back to Europe and, hopefully, study there for at least another year.

All I need to do is earn scholarships, grants and a few thousand bucks before then. Good luck to me.

In other news, did I mention how lovely zucchini is? No? Well. It's great. Especially sauteed in olive oil and white wine with salt, fresh oregano, marjoram and chili flakes, which is how I cooked it a few nights ago. Seriously, eat this. Plain, or over long pasta with a dusting of parmesan. You won't regret it.

Friday, July 16, 2010

And life, it goes on

Getting adjusted back to the homeland hasn't been as hard as I'd anticipated. I thought I would be a lot more homesick for Germany, but I'm doing pretty well in that regard. I miss the wonderful people I met during my year of European living, but life is progressing at such a rapid pace here that I haven't had time to really process the whole experience, or contemplate longingly all that I now miss. I've been working, sleeping, working, seeing friends, working, and trying to figure out what to do with myself in terms of getting ready to uproot my life yet again. My upcoming move to MN is getting nearer with each passing day, but I haven't yet given it the serious thought it deserves, either.

In other news, I'm preparing myself for some (hopefully) good shows, and eating a lot of curry. New music is finally making its way into my life, and I have to say there's some pretty good stuff coming out right now, especially out of my area. Such a relief to finally listen to something fresh, after a year of listening only to what I'd accumulated on my iPod. I love summer listening.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Another lovely edition of 'What I Did At Work'

-Made base for chocolate ice cream
-Broke a bottle of rosewater and cleaned it up, while an interested touring group looked on through the kitchen window
-Made caramel sauce
-Made ice cream sandwiches
-Packaged ice cream sandwiches
-Measured hazelnuts into one pound bags

My coworkers played 'Pet Sounds' because they know I don't like the Beach Boys. But S made me a killer latte with really pretty art on top, so I can deal.

Now I am ready for dinner and sleep. My days off are coming up! But I actually love my job.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Work

What I did at work today:
-Made two batches of chocolate sorbet mix
-Made lattes
-Made vegan hot fudge (coconut milk instead of cream, it's really good)
-Dipped ice cream cones in chocolate
-Chopped up cookies
-Lifted heavy things
-Washed all of the floor mats

This may not seem like it could take eight hours, but it did.

What was played at work today:
-The Beatles
-Simon and Garfunkle
-Sexton Blake
-Portishead? (Don't know for sure)
-Other stuff that I can't remember, ambient beat techno type stuff, etc.

I love my coworkers, really. They are all so funny, and good conversationalists. We get along well. Feels good to be back.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Back in the USA

Peanutbutter sandwiches, mayo without sugar, Mexican food, barbecues, veggies, soymilk...

Home!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Freaking out

My suitcases are dangerously close to exceeding their weight limits, and I have not packed everything. But somehow, I will achieve this! I am determined. I will not give in to sending another package without a fight. Unfortunately, I have only one day to send one, if I'm going to. Oh, seven shirts that I just washed, please be dry soon.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Six days?

I have six days left in Germany. My room looks like a thrift store threw up in it. Shelves are bare. Wall hangings have been stuffed in suitcases. Electronics litter the floor. Packing up my life continues to be less than cool.

On the plus side, the weather's really beautiful. I'm contemplating going on one last journey, alone, into Düsseldorf, to sit by the Rhine and enjoy a book, and to think about my last days here. I've been lazing around for the last few days, sporadically packing, and I feel that I should really get out there and enjoy the sun and the river; who knows when I'm going to get back here, and the Rhine has been one of the places I've most enjoyed going. I wish I could get in one last trip to Köln, but it's not looking like that's going to happen.

I was in Berlin last week, which was great. Friends and I went out on a lake, had a picnic, frolicked through parks, burst into song on the streets, and shared sentimental togetherness moments in the Mauerpark at midnight. Ten people all expressing their love for each other while sitting in a dark field among a bunch of German hipsters is a one of a kind experience.

I really need to finish packing...scattered post, but I just thought a quick update was in order.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

My floor is covered in the detritus of a year's worth of life: papers, books, articles of clothing. Everything has been sorted, in some sense of the word, into piles: what to keep, what to recycle, what to pack now and what to leave until the very last minute, in the hopes that the fifty pound weight limit for suitcases will not have been exceeded.

I'm moving, picking up at the end of the month and leaving a life that I probably worked harder at developing than the one I had back in America. And when I go home, what will I find there? I'm so different. I haven't talked to my friends besides scant facebook communication and intermittent e-mails that are, more often than not, left unanswered. All of my friends I've made here will go back to their lives, and I feel I will be suspended...

The onslaught of pensive, "I'm leaving!" posts has begun.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Words a-flowin'

In the last two days I have successfully written both a sonnet and a long German poem. Now I am perhaps a tad too proud of myself, but this is the most I've written in a long while, outside of the occasional blog post and the necessary long-winded essay.

Lately I've been in good spirits, especially as the weather has been balmy and sunny here. Today it was back to a dark sky and torrents of rain, but at least the weekend was glorious in its 80-degree splendor. Summer is just around the corner, made ever more apparent by my impending return to the U.S. in just under one month. This year went by fast, but not too fast that I won't appreciate the wonder of being home.

Still, there are definitely things I will miss about Germany. The delicious cheese, for example. Brötchen for breakfast. Olive oil for 2 or 3 Euros per bottle. Efficient public transportation. And of course, the supportive friends I've made along the way.

But it's time to start a new life-chapter, and I'm ready. Over the next few weeks, I plan to enjoy my last days in Europe to the fullest, taking in all that I can and saving it up as a memory that I can always revisit, fondly, in my mind's eye.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

London

Wow.

Maybe the coolest city I've visited in Europe so far. My two days there were two of the best I've lived, and though I was sleep deprived (I took the bus, which is an eleven hour trip and includes having to wait to go through the Chunnel), I was basically pretty ecstatic. The whole trip was a whirlwind of good food, sightseeing, and tube-riding. I miss it already.

Upon arrival, friends S, KS, KJ, C and I set about acquainting ourselves with the London underground. The maze-like system is completely different from the simple organization of German public transportation, but I actually liked this a little better. After some initial confusion involving the zone system they have in place there (which determines how much one needs to pay for tickets), direction, and which lines to take, we were on our way. While boarding the tube, an announcement crackled over the PA system: "To the bloke who's walking along the edge of the platform with his girlfriend: this is dangerous, and she could die. Next time, think with your brain and not your feet!" Everyone in the train laughed--what a great first impression of England (and I mean that in all seriousness).

As people who have all read Harry Potter, our first stop was King's Cross Station. Yes, there is a Platform 9 3/4 (specially made for tourists). Yes, we lined up there and took photos. It was tacky, but all in good fun. And when you need to nerd out with your friends over Harry Potter, it's perfect. I didn't even feel that weird about it, as there were people three times my age waiting to take a picture. King's Cross, however--aside from the fake platform--looks disappointingly normal. KJ was a little embarrassed the whole time, as she is not a big fan of the books and was going along to humor the rest of us.

Our next stop on Day One was the British Museum, which we were surprised to find was absolutely free. We perused mummies and ancient Egypt, then meandered through Mesopotamian artifacts and ended up at the Rosetta Stone. There was a lot to see, but the museum was pretty mobbed and we were getting hungry, so we left after about an hour and a half. I'd heard a lot of bad things about British food, but I didn't eat one bad thing the entire two days, and this first lunch was no exception. We bought sandwiches at a sandwich chain called Pret a Manger, but they are on pretty good bread, have interesting ingredients and flavor combinations, are cheap, and fast. I got an egg, mayonnaise and cress sandwich. It was good, although I feel it could have used a little mustard. I was overjoyed to find that Englanders appear to use normal mayonnaise and not the sugared, artificial kind that is popular in Germany. Woohoo for sandwich snobbery! I also bought a bottle of sparkling lemonade, something I haven't had since coming to Germany, at Marks & Spencer in Charing Cross. C opted not to go to the sandwich chain, and instead bought a traditional Salt Beef sandwich. It was actually really good, despite neon-yellow mustard. Salt Beef is kind of like British pastrami, and the sandwich came on rye with pickles. We took our sandwiches to a park near Buckingham Palace and ate in the sun, then proceeded onward to (maybe?) see the Queen.

We didn't end up seeing her, but we did see a marching band, and we continued to make our way all over London, eventually ending at the Tower Bridge, as all of us were getting sore feet, and making our way back to our hotel. After about half an hour of recuperation after our long day, we decided to get some dinner. Being the foodie that I sometimes--albeit reluctantly--am, I had already researched the best Indian restaurants in London. These required a thirty minute tube trip, but being the adventurers that we are, S, C, KJ and I decided to brave it anyway. C loves Indian food, and was pretty excited when we got off of the train in East Ham and realized that we were the only non-Indian people on the entire street. The restaurant I'd located is called Thattukada, and it lived up to its internet reputation. I ordered a simple vegetarian curry with chapati; the curry was rich and silky, with a burning spiciness that caught me completely by surprise. It included perfectly cooked cauliflower, green beans, potato, carrot, peas, etc. It was really good, and easily big enough for two people to share. I also ordered a mango lassi, which mellowed out the spiciness of the curry, and was a perfect, smooth balance between tangy sour and sweet. S ordered chicken curry and two kinds of Indian 'bread' that I have never seen before--one was thin with a kind of sweet foamy middle, and the other was similar to naan, except a little more buttery and flaky. The chicken curry was thinner than the vegetable version, with a stronger hit of prickly hotness and a subtly different mixture of spices. It was excellent. C ordered mutton biryani, which was an extremely hot, cumin and cardamom-studded mound of buttery basmati rice with equally spicy meat atop it, and a cold yoghurt sauce to cool it down served on the side. This dish was amazing--I've never had Indian food like it before, and the memory of that perfectly-cooked rice with the perfume of cardamom in every bite still haunts me. C ate the whole thing with his hands, which is actually the correct way (everyone else in the restaurant, I observed, ate their plates of rice, etc., without using utensils). KJ, who claimed not to like Indian food because it upsets her stomach, ordered something called 'Chicken Fried Rice.' This turned out to be a plate of basmati with ghee, sweet green peppers, egg, and chicken. It at first looked like typical 'fried rice,' but the taste was great. The basmati was enhanced by the flavors of ghee and chicken, and the whole dish tasted fresh, unlike the greasy, mediocre 'fried rice' that is ubiquitous in America. Despite KJ's claim about Indian food, I noted that her plate was completely clean at the end of our meal. The waiter asked us if we had liked our food, and seemed surprised by our enthusiastic, positive answers. I'm guessing they don't see many groups of Americans in their restaurant.

After our dinner, we explored some of the markets in the area, where I was sorely tempted to buy Indian ingredients that aren't readily available in Germany, but had to contain my urge. C, however, bought lychee juice. We ended up heading to Picadilly Circus later to take in some of the London night scene and to meet up with KS, but we were so tired that we ended up walking around aimlessly and eventually deciding to crash back at the hotel. The next day, we started out early and, thanks to an amazing man with a tiny food cart containing an espresso machine, were well-fueled for our last day in London. As a side note, the latte I ordered was insanely good--the guy making the coffees tamped the espresso grounds himself, and really knew what he was doing. This was the best cup of coffee I've had since coming to Europe, which is strange, because everyone told me how bad British coffee is.

We made it as far as St. Paul's Cathedral before KJ met up with a German friend and headed out to the Twining's Factory (I'm kicking myself for not going with!), C went into the cathedral to investigate climbing to the top, and S and I walked across Millennium Bridge to the Tate Modern, where there was a free art festival going on. People from all over the world were showing their art, and the whole thing was a little like TBA, but contained in the Tate. One woman was patiently crocheting herself into a cocoon, and there was a man from Portland, OR (!) using the power from photosynthesis to create music with growing plants. After a few hours there, we left and got Vietnamese, which was good, but not as great as some of my favorite Vietnamese restaurants in America. S and I considered paying for the London Eye, but after we saw the never-ending lines, thought the better of it. Instead, we got our hair cut for a reasonable price by hip Italian stylists. Hey, when in London...

Later we hit up Pret again for road food, and I got an excellent cheddar, mustard, tomato and pickle sandwich. The pickles were really good, not so much 'pickled' as marinated, and they reminded me of chutney. For a chain, a damn good sandwich. We endured another bus ride through the chunnel, and after about ten hours, we were back in Germany. It felt good to be home and in bed, but I feel that I could have spent at least two weeks in London and still not have seen everything it has to offer. If I ever get back to Europe, I'll need to make another visit.

The delay on this post was long, I know, but I just got back from Prague, as well. I'll try to pay blog-homage to that trip in the next few days. As of tomorrow, I have one month left in Europe--I'm excited to go home, but scared of the packing and transplanting of my life that looms ahead. Time is flying by.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Next Year

I've decided for MN...

Despite the frigid winters and the flatness, I really like what I've seen of the Twin Cities, and I feel that living in an urban environment will be better for me (I would go stir crazy in Germany if not for the ten-minute train to Düsseldorf). I need the immediate big city access. I've also met many people from the Twin Cities who have been in my home town, and there are apparently similarities in the general living style, the liberal attitudes, etc.

Plus, I'll have the Banh-Mi of all Banh-Mi available at a moment's notice. It seems almost too good to be true. What other wonders of cheap Asian dining in Minneapolis/St. Paul have I yet to discover? (Oh yeah, I almost forgot the Nepalese...mmm, Nepalese food!)

Still, I feel a small twinge of sadness at leaving my lifelong dream of someday living on the East Coast behind. I love it there; it's like another world when compared to the West Coast, and I badly want to go back. Maybe I'll live there yet, in a few more years.

In other news, I have an impending trip to London coming up, and I can't wait. I've always had this absurd fantasy of going to London, suddenly meeting a surviving Beatle, and spending the day being whisked around by him to all of the culturally important and highfalutin London hotspots. London to me is rock music, mod fashion, high society and scholarly pursuits all rolled into one; a historically significant, yet unbelievably hip Utopia that's been built up by years of Hollywood flicks and entertaining reading material. I'm just a little afraid it won't live up to my expectations (but even more excited that it will exceed them).

I made a pasta salad with pesto last weekend, and it was really, really good. I've been craving pasta salads lately.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

ouch

In my family, there is a running joke revolving around my unfortunate penchant for cutting myself by accident, and more specifically, on objects not considered harmful by normal standards. Not only do I manage to break the skin, but usually I end up drawing blood with such simple everyday items as cereal boxes, bread tabs, and pencils. How I do it is a mystery, even to me, but this week it's been happening a lot. So far, I have accidentally cut myself (with blood) on (in order from least to most embarrassing):

1. Kitchen knives. Ok, so this isn't unusual, but I wanted to buffer the upcoming clumsiness.
2. My plastic gym membership card.
3. The strap on my messenger bag.
4. My leather wallet.
5. Dadadada...my coat pocket.

That's right. I cut myself today on a piece of cloth.

The world is my knife.

Friday, April 16, 2010

island

Sometimes, I feel as if I am sitting on an island. I am surrounded for miles by water, and have only my thoughts for company. 

Sometimes, it is the loneliest feeling in the world, but sometimes, all I want is to be alone and it is the most comforting feeling in the world.

Friday, April 2, 2010




I love this new tea that I discovered. The best part is, they sell it in America, too! The flavor is so rich and delicious, with hints of chocolate, cinnamon, cardamom and vanilla. Mmmm.

I'm also in the process of making a big decision about my living situation next year. I'm going to be moving once again, and I've been attempting pro-con lists. Unfortunately, they're not helping me choose. The Twin Cities, or rural Massachusetts?

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Again with the lunch

Today it's sheep's cheese, apple and honey. Have not tried it yet, as it is packed for later. I am excited for this. I could be the next hip person to open a fancy-schmancy sandwich shop in the states and charge 9+ dollah for my "gourmet" bread/topping combinations.


*Edit: This sandwich was really, really good.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Best home sandwich ever.

I have just discovered my new favorite sandwich to fix myself for an evening snack here: toasted bread, honey, sheep's cheese and slices of ripe pear. Ambrosia. Seriously. Especially with a sweet cup of coffee and a good book.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Lit Update (Not That You Care)

I finished The Picture of Dorian Gray today. At first, I had made up my mind that I really didn't like it, but the macabre twists and the sinister ending improved my opinion. I just wish that middle part, in which Wilde goes into minute detail about every single hobby Dorian Gray has ever had, could have been cut down. I mean, it's important to character development and all, but did I really need to know about his budding obsession with rock-collecting? Does that really give me insight into his personality? Couldn't it have just been mentioned in passing instead of taking up an entire page?

Every so often, I read someone's opinion that the literature of today is so short and to-the-point that everybody's standards have changed, nobody is capable of reading the complex, nuanced sentences of old, etc. I used to dismiss such statements, but I'm starting to think there's some truth in them. I mean, even when I look at the difference between what my parents can read and what I can, it's huge. My mom reads Edith Wharton, and her books make me snore. My dad enjoyed A Tale of Two Cities, perhaps one of my least favorite reads of all time. On the other hand, I have two friends of my age group who read Edith Wharton and love Charles Dickens, respectively. So perhaps all it really boils down to is individual taste. Or maybe I have the attention span of a three-year-old after birthday cake. Who knows?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Honey

I really believe that honey is one of the most amazing substances known to mankind. It tastes amazing, it looks beautiful, it is made by insects, and there are unending varieties of it, each one astoundingly different from the next. But perhaps one of the most amazing properties of honey is one I had never even paused to acknowledge before reading it on a honey farm's informational webpage: honey never goes bad. It crystallizes, but one could theoretically keep using the same jar of honey indefinitely with no adverse effects. As someone who has often been disgusted by the amount of moldy, unidentifiable food products in their home refrigerator, this particular trait makes honey very dear to me. Well, that and the fact that it's better for you than refined sugar and tastes really good on peanut butter/banana sandwiches.

I wish I had more exciting things to blog about than my love of non-perishable food items, but life has been so normal and uneventful lately. Tomorrow I am planning a trip to my fave Bio-Markt to buy some more natural peanut butter that doesn't include plant fat/doesn't taste rancid. I'm reading two books at the same time: The Picture of Dorian Grey and The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. The first one I'm not wild about; the second has promise, but I'm not very far in yet. On Saturday I'm seeing Alice In Wonderland with a couple of friends--Tim Burton doing depraved with pedo undertones, should be interesting.

More on the above literature later. And I really will post something about the German language. But right now, I have a mountain of laundry that ain't gonna do itself.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Exactly

...Four months from today, I will be back in America.

Where did the time go?

Ich hab dich lieb Deutschland, aber mein Heimat ruft mir und sagt, "Komm zurück meine süße!"

And I must obey.

P.S. There were probably a million things wrong with that German, as you will see when I finish my upcoming post on the confusion of German grammar and sentence structure.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

How To Feed Yourself For A Week. Maybe.

Basically, it's simple: make a big-ass pasta salad. I get a lot of compliments on my pasta salads, and it takes almost no time at all to whip one up. So here's the run down:

Take your selected amount of pasta (usually I make a lot, hence the eating for a week thing), in whatever small-ish shape appeals to you. I like mini penne, farfalle and fusilli, but it's up to you. Salt some water, bring it to a boil, and throw that pasta in. Cook for however long the package specifies.

While the pasta is boiling, cut up some fresh veggies. I usually go for tomatoes, cucumber, fresh corn (when in season), avocado, maybe bell pepper. Really, the possibilities are endless, depending on your taste. Chop up some fresh onion, a large bunch of fresh basil, and maybe some fresh herbs or chives.*

When the pasta's done, transfer it to a large bowl. Drizzle with olive oil and plenty of your vinegar of choice. Liberally salt and pepper (I like coarsely ground black pepper and kosher salt). Add in a couple pressed cloves of garlic, or alternately mix up a dressing beforehand that includes smashed garlic. Mix in the veggies and fresh herbs.

Finish the dish off by crumbling feta or a good goat cheese into the finished salad, stirring to incorporate. Eat, and continue to eat for the next few days. Oh, and tip: a higher veggie to pasta ratio is recommended, otherwise the dish seems less like a salad and more like a pile of noodles with a couple of forlorn green bits thrown in for decoration. Not so appealing. Therefore, if you're making enough pasta salad to feed yourself for days on end, you'll need to have a reasonably large veggie selection on hand. Sometimes I add fresh vegetables to each subsequent serving.

Other good additions: grilled or smoked salmon, olives, capers, curry powder, lemon juice, pine nuts, parsley, cilantro, Thai basil, sauteed mushrooms, hard-boiled egg, steamed green beans, tuna, dill...ok, my point is made. Pasta salad is versatile, delicious, easy to make, and usually a crowd-pleaser. People who don't like a. bell peppers and b. feta have eaten my pasta salad containing both and proclaimed it good.





*How many times can I use the word 'fresh' in one sentence?